Saturday, September 26, 2009

Я Вас любил (ya vas lyubil)


Я
Вас любил, любовь еще быть может
В душе моей угасла не совсем
Но пусть она вас больше не тревожит
Я не хочу печалить Вас ничем

Я Вас любил безмолвно, безнадежно
То робостью, то ревностью томим
Я Вас любил так искренно, так нежно
Как дай Вам бог любимым быть другим.


Романс "Я вас любил" нап стихи А. С, Пушкина




ya vas lubil;

lyubov isho, b'yt mozhet;

v dushe mayei ugasla ne sovsem;

no pust ona vas bol'she ne trevozhet;

ya ni khachu pechalit' vas nichem;;;


Ya vas lyubil;

to molnost'yu, to revnost'yu tomim;

ya vas lyubil, tak iskrenno, tak nezhno;

kak dai vam Bog lyubimoy byt' drugim



Pushkin wrote this for someone's wife..you'd be surprised how often this happens, and i'm surprised at how beautiful this poem really is


my favourite rendition of this poem here

a tormented soul's silent anguish bleeds silently, trading lost dignity with false pride, lost pride with shameless acts, finding comfort with indifference, knowing solace a utopia for even dreams, pitiful, yet does it deserve pity.drowning in sorrow, yet not wishing to be saved.let me be..let me bleed..

though a weak human that i am, i seek not redemption


o err'd have I, moronic my deeds were
to be human, to be me

Monday, September 21, 2009

25 years

22 september 1984

it's been a beautiful life
although i made a lot of mistakes, sometimes repeatedly
the ups and downs..

Sunday, September 20, 2009

goodbye ramadhan..

the masjid in front of htar which i went for terawih..one of the perks of having a car


ramadhan came and went by...
to see this blessed month next year..is enough of a reason for me to keep on living..
hope to see you again dear friend

other than that selamat hari raya aidilfitri everyone maaf zahir batin

a friend told me to keep on writing, even though it's been months..thank you for the support..


a lot happened this past few months for me..it was the most eventful, and yet, nothing happened
the memories were beautiful, but the ending, although not as well for me, hopefully is for the best and i hope the choices made will be the happiest for others.as for me i feel like i made some stupid mistakes, but this is one of those times when mistakes can never be repaired, or forgiven...i'll live with this regret...this clown still have a show to put,and an audience to entertain..i'll paint that big red smile over my face..and live on..