Breaking The Habit

sorry about the linkin park plagiarism, but some of their songs really do ring a bell to certain aspects of my life..maybe that's why they're so popular..their songs-especially the first ones, were in touch with the problems most people face, and they didnt sing about problems, they sang about facing them, and overcoming them..well, that's how i perceived it when i listened then..

Did you know - well, of course you dont, i guess - that everytime i wrote something here, it affects me as well, and quite significantly too..when i write about my failings, reading them back -the words that i have published- gives me a resolution to make them just that..another post in the past..
-and there i was wondering what good will it do to open up and show my weaknesses-
i guess people show their vulnerability on their blogs for a reason... (or even many reasons)
problems are what makes us human...and the way we face them is what makes or breaks us
It's probably not too much to say that problems really are blessings in disguise..with problems we are able to grow, to learn, to become better.
They are chances- a chance to change for the better, a chance to show how much we care, how much others care and retrospectively showing the conditions/closeness of relationships, though there's no real standard to them, and others
they also force us to take life seriously and reconsider things realistically..a way of testing our limits
enough said, if i said i was lazy, i'd try not to be by the time i write the next post, when i wrote i was lacking enough sleep, i tried my best to contemplate my condition, and started wondering was it really not enough, or should i change something
i have lots of bad habits..at times i can be lazy, and my time management can be laughable..as of now...i will try, insyaAllah, to be a better person than today.
I will inshaAllah, do everything i wanted to do, but havent done. i know that i have wasted a lot of time, even unnecessarily
i know i can do lots of stuff..even have both elements of work and play, everyday..if i have the proper time management, or the proper resolution and willpower
it might not happen all at once, I dont deny that it might not happen at all, but it's a good start

in the meantime, i'll have a good laugh about everything wrong with me
this is my resolution for the day
I will break the habits of yesterday

these pics have got nothing to do with my bad habits, though

"as long as it's Halal"

picturing daily life

remember the ibans and how they used to collect skulls? scary stuff, right? this is a normal table for almost evey teacher I've met here..they collect REAL HUMAN SKULLS too, see? (even the students too..sometimes parts of it, siap ada yg tak pulangkan lg, tulang2 tengkorak tu..)
some of us went to the city circus duirg the 3 day holiday (den narodnova yedinstva)
they got camels, kangaroos, leopards, etc, as the theme was "safari",the rest is what virtually every circus has
KIM FC - winners of the recent football league with the most goals and only 1 (or was it 2?) draw(s)
busynye diorg, guess who's the laziest

to get more pics, visit my fotopages, i've been updating them for some time,but mostly it's the europe trip, and some raya and a few months old pics

sleepless

time-when we have it, we tend to think it's endless..well..that's how i seem to perceive it..which is bad..
I wonder what happens to my time..the past few weeks have been weird..I'm awake so late into the night, sometimes i see morning...insomnia?maybe..at times, it's 3hours, but some good nights i managed a decent 5 hours' worth of sleep.
Unlike others who might do the same, I dont sleep during the day,but the chronic fatigue is there, and headaches - well, they're already a part of my life, at times. Sometimes, the worst happens - i doze off in class in front of the lecturer..
If i dont get coffee(which i rarely take) or food, i sleep a few minutes during those few recesses.lectures- well, if i go, i get some sleep there..if i dont - I wont sleep at all..
what's happening?
at first, it was work, then it was headaches, later on the internet became unlimited..i dont play games late into the night, ok half true, i did play twice till very late..it was a 3-day holiday and i couldnt resist, but i've kept my games to at most 2 hour a day and that's it...some days i dont play at all..
i dont do stuff...maybe it's still the internet?
i sleep so late, then miraculously i manage to wake up in just enough time to get ready to class..where's my time management?
I'm not really busy with work, I do try stuff, but not that much, and i stopped exercising since Aidilfitri (except those 2 football matches)
man...I really need to get myself together
My back's starting to ache and i've started whining like an old man...

Nur Ain, good luck on your SPM, i'll pray for you, for the best, insyaAllah

Im just weird that's why